April 9, 2007
He left me again as I have feared. He said he had a problem and he wants to deal with it on his own. I don’t want to think of him right now because it would only cause me multiple heartaches and in the end I would only hate him. I want everything between us to be alright even if he wants to be with someone else. I am contented in just talking to him and see that he is happy with his life and decisions. I don’t know if he will ever come back to me. I am not asking for him to be mine forever because I know I will never be his one and only but I want to be by his side and let him feel how important he is to me and how much I value what we have right now even if most people would think that I would be better off with another guy. How I adore this man that I would give anything and everything just to see him smile and glance my way. My baby quicksilver that is what he is, very elusive yet addictive. There is really something in him that I cannot find in any other guy and for me it is an important ingredient to my Mr. Right maybe that is the reason why even if I know that I have to find someone who will really value me I am still hoping that he would care for me just a tiny-winy bit. Truly, Michael Delator Mantua is the man I cannot live without.
Dangerously in love
Beyonce
I love you
I love you
I love you
Baby I love you
You are my life
The happiest moments weren’t complete
If you weren’t by my side
You’re my relation
And connection to the sun
With you next to me
There’s no darkness I can’t overcome
You are the raindrops
I am the seed
With you and God, who’s the sunlight
I’ll bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby I’m so proud
Proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world
* I am in love with you
You set me free
I can’t do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I’m Dangerously In Love with you
I’ll never leave
Just keep lovin’ me
The way I love you loving me (2x)
And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
‘Cause years before I became who I am
Baby, you were my man
I know it ain’t easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
The thought of all my love for you
Sometimes makes me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I’m grateful
To have you by my side
*
Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love
To hold
To feel
To breathe
To live you
Dangerously in love
this song tells it all. i love my baby and he knows that but the things is he doesn’t love me. it is a very complicated thing that even i can not understand. he’s my man and i’m his girl. i want him to be THE one but he is still on the prowl, i guess boys will be boys… well, actually he is not really looking for a lifetime mate right now or even looking for a partner (period). he is a charming guy and all of the girls fall for him and it is easy for him to pick any girl who flirts with him. ohh i don’t know………… basta! im very dangerously in love right now that i think im going insane………………………
