What a wonderful day

Although the weather is gloomy God made a way to jumpstart my day.

i woke up today around 8 am but i got out of bed by 9:45 am. i don’t feel like going to school today because its a saurday but i have to because my groupmates depend on me to organize our "prayer celbration". i did my morning ritual and when i was about to go it started to rain. kainees! i like the rain pero bad timing…i wasn’t in a good mood because mama and papa were both pissing me off… always giving side comments and all tapos umulan pa. i said to myself, "bahala na. aalis ako kahit ulan and walang payong. d nmn ako takot mabasa.". so off i go… i walked hanggang sa sakayan ng jeep. before i reached the waiting shed there were two boys ((and i mean boys na bata around 9-10yrs old)) sa may kanto, one was carrying a tarpuline over his head gamit nya as payong. i don’t know if they were just playing with me but they offered me the tarp coz they saw me walking in the rain without an umbrella i said "no, ok ra ko, salamat nalang". i continued my journey ((char!)) at may nakasalubong nanaman ako… a lady carrying an umbrella, dami nyang dala and she kept on staring but before ko xa malampasan she smiled and sabi nya saken "ka gwapa nalang nimo day" then i was like(0_o)…then…(^-^)… jejeje! smile lang ko, la ko nakathank you sa iya kay nilakaw na man xa plus mabasa ko sa ulan if i don’t continue walking…

lingaw noh?! a stranger thought gwapa ko when everybody na close ko eh kokonti lang ang nakapagsabi sken nun… jajaja! a girl needs to feel good about herself. God is so good to send that woman my way… laki ng effect nun to boost my confidence….

Dragons

dragons… bow… jejeje!

i love dragons pero wala kasing stuffed toy na malaking dragon na super adorable… ((mura kog tala cge ko ug sulti ug super)) jajaja!

snapping out of an illusion

Hey guys! You know what?! I just woke up from a very long dream. I’m over him. I have no regret for whatever happened with me and Michael. I can say his name now without me hoping or crying. I guess I got the bang in the head that I needed. Jajaja! This is a good start. I snapped out of it. Congratulate me coz I’m through being stupid and pathetic. With the two chaotic years I have this small regret and it is failing to value what is real. I guess it’s too late to say it but…. Jajaja! What the heck? Lam nyo na un… kung d nyo alam…

feel free to

ask d naman ako nangangagat eh…

an entry on my diary last april 9, 2007

April 9, 2007

            He left me again as I have feared. He said he had a problem and he wants to deal with it on his own. I don’t want to think of him right now because it would only cause me multiple heartaches and in the end I would only hate him. I want everything between us to be alright even if he wants to be with someone else. I am contented in just talking to him and see that he is happy with his life and decisions. I don’t know if he will ever come back to me. I am not asking for him to be mine forever because I know I will never be his one and only but I want to be by his side and let him feel how important he is to me and how much I value what we have right now even if most people would think that I would be better off with another guy. How I adore this man that I would give anything and everything just to see him smile and glance my way. My baby quicksilver that is what he is, very elusive yet addictive. There is really something in him that I cannot find in any other guy and for me it is an important ingredient to my Mr. Right maybe that is the reason why even if I know that I have to find someone who will really value me I am still hoping that he would care for me just a tiny-winy bit. Truly, Michael Delator Mantua is the man I cannot live without.

things even i can’t understand

Dangerously in love

Beyonce

I love you
I love you
I love you

Baby I love you
You are my life
The happiest moments weren’t complete
If you weren’t by my side
You’re my relation
And connection to the sun
With you next to me
There’s no darkness I can’t overcome
You are the raindrops
I am the seed
With you and God, who’s the sunlight
I’ll bloom and grow so beautifully
Baby I’m so proud
Proud to be your girl
You make the confusion
Go all away
From this cold and messed up world

* I am in love with you
You set me free
I can’t do this thing
Called life without you here with me
Cause I’m Dangerously In Love with you
I’ll never leave
Just keep lovin’ me
The way I love you loving me (2x)

And I know you love me
Love me for who I am
‘Cause years before I became who I am
Baby, you were my man
I know it ain’t easy
Easy loving me
I appreciate the love and dedication
From you to me
Later on in my destiny
I see myself having your child
I see myself being your wife
And I see my whole future in your eyes
The thought of all my love for you
Sometimes makes me wanna cry
Realize all my blessings
I’m grateful
To have you by my side

*

Every time I see your face
My heart smiles
Every time it feels so good
It hurts sometimes
Created in this world
To love
To hold
To feel
To breathe
To live you

Dangerously in love

this song tells it all. i love my baby and he knows that but the things is he doesn’t love me. it is a very complicated thing that even i can not understand. he’s my man and i’m his girl. i want him to be THE one but he is still on the prowl, i guess boys will be boys… well, actually he is not really looking for a lifetime mate right now or even looking for a partner (period). he is a charming guy and all of the girls fall for him and it is easy for him to pick any girl who flirts with him. ohh i don’t know………… basta! im very dangerously in love right now that i think im going insane………………………

happy valentines day

the tradition has been broken. usually andie, menchie, and me would start our venlentine celebration on the day of the lavapalooza celebration. on that day we would go out and go to places we usually dont go to then by 6pm we would go to our final destination which is the Matina Town Square where the lavapalooza is held every year since 2005. on the 14th of february after our classes we would find a new place to dine together with some guy friends who is willing to join our group. but this year unfortunately we were so busy to think about celebrating valentines the usual way. last saturday i was busy trying to finish my lab report, andie was busy with awitenista, and menchie’s with antonio i guess. today is feb 14 and andie cant have dinner with me coz she already got a date with her highschool teachers and menchie got anton and i dont want to ruin ther valentines day by tagging along… i dont know what i would do today. i want to celebrate coz i finished my lab report at long last… i guess i wud go see a movie all by myself or go to damosa and see what their carnival has to offer. i want to go to a new place, unfortunately i cant do that coz my mom just borrowed 600 from me and i dont want to spend my remaining money coz i’v got plans already… oh well, i wish something good will happen today but i dont expect someone to give me flowers coz i havent received any since i became "dalaga"… its 6am already, got to go prepare for school….

Sick and Tired

im so sick and tired of people calling me ugly…

Love Lots, Love Lost

  I lost something valuable last night… i dont know whether it’s ok or not but i am sure of one thing, i will  never find that kind of intense feeling from another person again… i was afraid to look at him for i can’t bear to see that look on his face again… his eyes were no longer smiling at me that was when i knew it was time to end things… i knew it was time but i was not yet prepared… i thought i was but my reaction told me otherwise… i tried to do things just to bring that smile back in his eyes but nothing changed maybe because i did not change… i was slowly killing him… at first i thought it was just ok, just to know if he really could bear my attitude, the good and the bad, but i guess he was easily feed up… He said it was ok… i doubt…

i cannot sleep

d ako makatulog… ewan cguro dahil sa ice cream o kaya sa toblerone na kinain ko kanina… nonsense man ni nga blog pero cge nlng para ma empty aqng mind kay kapoy huna2 ug things… maminaw nlng ko ug tugtog diri… naai picture pero dli xa konektado sa akong gpaangsulat diri… bahala na mo oi..

forever blue

Forever Blue Lyrics

Used to like the sound of the rain

And feel your arms around me

Together we go insane,

But I wake up to where I should be

I’ve longed for the wind,

They touch me through my feelings

And you’ll never know till they begin,

What you want is really what it means

CHORUS:

Don’t wanna be forever blue

‘Cause I deserve some love that’s true

Finding it the hard way

And wishing for it everyday

I guess I was wrong to want you, yeah

‘Cause I’m afraid, I’m afraid, I’m afraid

To be forever blue

Gonna find some other guy for me

This time it will be just like the wind

Coming at the time it must be

And blowing to where I should be

I’ve longed for the wind,

They touch me through my feelings

And you’ll never know till they begin,

What you want is really what it means

CHORUS

BRIDGE:

Don’t wanna be alone

I need someone to hold on to

And share my dreams with a love

A love that’s always true

CHORUS

hahay, ako i really don’t want to be forever blue.. sinaktan nanaman nya ako pero hindi na ako magpapaapekto.. hahayaan ko nalang xa.. kung ayaw nya sakin di wag, i’m still young marami pa akong mamemeet na people na papalit sa kanya……………. who am i kidding, walang makakapantay sa kanya pero ewan… hayaan na muna natin.. xit your song nasad ang gaplay.. hahay whatever nalang ni oi.. di na ko, bahala xa..